Post by ducme on Jun 1, 2003 4:40:45 GMT -5
well i don't know whaere to put this so if the admins have a problem with it here i know they will take care of it.
anyways have you ever had one of those days where you feel like the world is against you no matter how hard you try?
i guess i should be grateful i am still alive but yet there is this small part of me lately that has been toying with the ideas of suicide.
i know yes it is normal to think about it everyone does at some point in there life.
and no this isn't my first time thinking about it.
i just figured maybe if i talked about it here then i would feel better.
i know i probably don't make too much of a difference here.
but i really have no where left to go.
anytime i try to talk to my family they don't want to have anything to do with me,
and i feel like since my diagnosis the whole world has turned its back to me.
i don't know if it is normal to go through life feeling like a piece of shit but if it is then i am about ready to leave it all behind.
i know i probably shouldn't toy with ideas of self mutilation again seeings how its been almost 3 years since i last cut, and its been 10 months since my last psych hospitalization, but i think deep down we all some times wonder what life is like beyond what we see day to day?
i doubt i will do anything to ruin my little streak of being cut free and i doubt i will try to kill myself but i just am glad i can get this out here on this board.
i will be back on here later.
maybe not today again
maybe not tomorrow but i will be back..
and yes i can use all the hugs ya'll can send me right now.
anyways have you ever had one of those days where you feel like the world is against you no matter how hard you try?
i guess i should be grateful i am still alive but yet there is this small part of me lately that has been toying with the ideas of suicide.
i know yes it is normal to think about it everyone does at some point in there life.
and no this isn't my first time thinking about it.
i just figured maybe if i talked about it here then i would feel better.
i know i probably don't make too much of a difference here.
but i really have no where left to go.
anytime i try to talk to my family they don't want to have anything to do with me,
and i feel like since my diagnosis the whole world has turned its back to me.
i don't know if it is normal to go through life feeling like a piece of shit but if it is then i am about ready to leave it all behind.
i know i probably shouldn't toy with ideas of self mutilation again seeings how its been almost 3 years since i last cut, and its been 10 months since my last psych hospitalization, but i think deep down we all some times wonder what life is like beyond what we see day to day?
i doubt i will do anything to ruin my little streak of being cut free and i doubt i will try to kill myself but i just am glad i can get this out here on this board.
i will be back on here later.
maybe not today again
maybe not tomorrow but i will be back..
and yes i can use all the hugs ya'll can send me right now.